And then it turned pitch black..

Here are the notes I scribbled while talking to my dad last night. Scary huh? I seriously think my eyes are out of tears. I cannot cry anymore. I had such a hard time dragging myself to work yesterday but I am so glad that I went. It got my mind off of things for a brief time. I don't really know what else to say.... For one of the few times in my life, I am speechless.